Crossroad

This week, my career is full of fruits. This few day, busy meeting with the management of the biggest trading house in the country. They decided to go for my solution. Besides, we are capturing the market at a tremendous rate. Most of the small-medium trading house opt to take my solution. Now, with the biggest player in my customer list, i believe, very soon, the rest of the market will be at my hand. If everything go smooth, we will start to attack MNC company market segment, and my company will expand to south east asia, asia, or even worldwide. God like blessing me along the career side, and very soon, i will get my fame, and my money.
At this point, i should feel excited, and very happy, because the effort i have put in, is finally bearing fruit. However, i feel numb, to all the achievements, and all praise. No doubt, i have done something to prove that i am really talented, i have done something that, even a team of professionals, also will not be able to do it within my time frame. I have prove to my competitors, a new way of knowledge management, and development structure. But all of these no longer the factor to my excitement and happiness.
The person that i wish to share with, is away from me. If she is here with me, my life will be a perfect life. But i know, i should bear the consequences, because the cause that i buried last time. Nothing is perfect in life, god is fair, when he give you something, he will take you other thing in return. At this stage, i have a very deep understanding in life, cause, and consequence. No matter what will happen, i will not waste what god have given me. Although i miss something in my life, but i hope i can help the peoples in the world. Hope our world can be peace, and out of pain, cheers....