梦

最近，我经常梦见她，
不是甜蜜的梦，
只是看着她和别人说话，
而我也没有打扰她，
只是看着她，
听着她的声音，
那已经足够了，
因为甜蜜的梦，
醒来，都会变成恶梦的。。。

紧张

刚刚摇了个电话给她，不知道为什么，我又紧张了。
平时口若悬河的我，竟然不知该说些什么，头脑一片空白。
问了几个怪怪的问题，就急急的盖电话了。
过后才后愧，为什么不谈谈她的近况，关心她一下。
真郁闷。。。

坏型像

最近有几件事，突然令我觉得，原来我在他们心目中是这么差的。

第一件，最近有位友人，从远方搬来，我就帮忙一下，结果有人问我，是不是因为一个人的关系。

第二件，一个朋友因为某件事让他怪罪，他和另一位友人见到我，就问我，是我告诉他的吗。

第三件，夜里，突然一位友人，跑来问我，最近是不是另一友人要介绍女孩我认识。

第四件，，，，

第五件，，，，等等

嗨，，，真的不想解释了，由它吧。。。我的好友说的对，我永远都改变不了别人的想法，做自己认为对的东西就好了。

谢谢，几位朋友最近的陪伴，让我可以暂时忘掉忧伤。

我等你

不做考慮也沒半點猶豫　我就說了這一句　我等你
你眼中閃過了一些訝異　更多的是懷疑　所以你可以離去

不相信你還會回心轉意　是我任性才決定　要等你
我眼中的淚沒掉過一滴　只是隨你背影　慢慢倒流進心裡（心底）

我等你　半年為期　逾期就狠狠把你忘記
不只傷心的　還包括一切甜蜜（你應該已經和她公開在一起）

要等你　要證明自己　我可以縱容你在心底
也可以當你只是路過的人而已

愛到痛之極　才需要一段等你的限期　來遺忘自己

我真的能忘記你吗？一年？ 两年？
我真的很怕，我会再次的错过你。
我真的真的真的很怕，很怕，很怕。
不能做什么，只好等着你，
或许在那一天，你会幸福的对我说，
“我要结婚了！！！”。
我答应你，那时，
我一定会微笑的祝福你，
然后，把这份爱，
深深的，埋藏起来，
永远的在我心里。。。。。

I Know

You've got such a pretty smile
Its a shame the things you hide behind it
Let 'em go
Give it up for a while
Let 'em free and we will both go find it

I know there's nowhere you can hide it
I know the feeling of alone
I know that you do not feel invited
But, come back, come back in from the cold

Tell me how you really feel
Tell me what is on the inside of you
All the somethings you conceal
Only keep away the ones who love you

Step away then from the edge
Your best friend is life is not your mirror
Back away, come away
Back away, come away
Back away, come away
Back away, come away
Back away, come away
Back away, come away
I am here and I will be forever

I know there's nowhere you can hide it
I know the feeling of alone
Trust me and dont keep that on the inside
Soon you'll be locked out on your own

You're not alone
You're not alone
And don't say you've never been told
I'll be with you 'til we grow old
til I'm in the ground and I'm cold
I'm not sitting up here on some throne
Like a dog you can always come home
Dig up a bone
Look around

Crossroad

This week, my career is full of fruits. This few day, busy meeting with the management of the biggest trading house in the country. They decided to go for my solution. Besides, we are capturing the market at a tremendous rate. Most of the small-medium trading house opt to take my solution. Now, with the biggest player in my customer list, i believe, very soon, the rest of the market will be at my hand. If everything go smooth, we will start to attack MNC company market segment, and my company will expand to south east asia, asia, or even worldwide. God like blessing me along the career side, and very soon, i will get my fame, and my money.
At this point, i should feel excited, and very happy, because the effort i have put in, is finally bearing fruit. However, i feel numb, to all the achievements, and all praise. No doubt, i have done something to prove that i am really talented, i have done something that, even a team of professionals, also will not be able to do it within my time frame. I have prove to my competitors, a new way of knowledge management, and development structure. But all of these no longer the factor to my excitement and happiness.
The person that i wish to share with, is away from me. If she is here with me, my life will be a perfect life. But i know, i should bear the consequences, because the cause that i buried last time. Nothing is perfect in life, god is fair, when he give you something, he will take you other thing in return. At this stage, i have a very deep understanding in life, cause, and consequence. No matter what will happen, i will not waste what god have given me. Although i miss something in my life, but i hope i can help the peoples in the world. Hope our world can be peace, and out of pain, cheers....

陶晶莹＂BLUE＂

夜里驾车途中，收音机刚好播出，陶晶莹的＂BLUE＂：

i feel blue
没有风的下午
想起那天还是会有点辛苦
oh! so blue 恨自己太清楚
oh! so blue 生命不能重覆
我有花在眼前酒在喉间
想的是你的笑脸
如果能在遇见
会不会有改变
也许你就永远在我身边
如果当时了解
看见我的暧昧
你会不会体贴地再多留一会儿
come back again
是谁走错了一步
谁又能不后悔
只是痛心的失心的
狠心的再难挽回

不知几时开始，我特别喜欢这些blue blue的歌，尤其在夜里一个人驾着车。
还记得，这一首，是在我考完SPM时，蛮喜欢的歌。
那时只单纯的爱上它的旋律。

事隔８年，听着这首歌，可真的百般滋味。
或许经历的事情多了，开始相信命运，开始学着接收。
也明白，
事情不会只是黑和白，往往会有灰色地带，
人不会只是好和坏，每个人都有他的阴阳面。

工作成了我惟一的娱乐，唯一的避风港。
其实，很多人不知道，当我不开心时，
我选择一边工作，一边听着blue blue的歌，陶醉在自己的世界。

沉醉于工作，是因为人生中，太多我控制不了的事情了，
但我却希望我的能力，我的财富，能带给别人幸福和开心，尤其是下一代。

给妳幸福

当我的心只能在妳的世界，
当我的心只能在哪儿打转，
我迷失了自己，
仿佛又回到了从前。

我不停的告诉自己，
要冷静的看待这一切，
但我偏偏找不到那份理智，
爱妳，就要爱妳的一切，
包括妳的任性，
和妳的执着，
我要扩大心里的花园，
让妳无忧无虑的，
在里面自由的飞翔。

这次我不会再放手了，
因为我真的很爱妳，
让妳幸福，是我永远的愿望，
就算给的人不是我。。。

Like A Star

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Honour to love you

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

You've got this look i can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is au fait,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Oh.,..
Your love,

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,

I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
To anyone but you
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands

Heaven Knows

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up till
I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know

And though she's far away
It just keeps getting stronger
everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

My friends keep tellin' me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in kind
I know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all this time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'cause heaven knows
Heaven knows.....
Heaven knows.....

沙滩

空无一人的沙滩，
一个人走着，
好寂寞，
人来人往的大街，
一个人走着，
好寂寞，
原来寂寞不是因为孤单，
而是你思念的人不在你身边。。。

流星雨

有人说，
流星是月亮的眼泪，
那是她，
为每段爱情的悲欢离合，
流下的每一颗眼泪.

那有没有一颗流星，
是月亮为我们流下的眼泪呢？

不屑纪念

又听着那首不屑纪念了，
已忘了我已经听了多少遍，
不屑纪念，
是真的放下了，
还是不愿想起？

我想不起我们几时分手，
只知道快要一年了，
我不愿想起那一天，
那满怀悲伤的一天，
和你决意离开的背影。

转眼间，又快一年了，
我兜兜转转又回到了原点，
不屑纪念原来是真的放不下，
不愿想起原来是她已深埋在我心里。。。

感性的机器人

从没有人知道，
我也有感性的一面，
在他们的眼中，
我仿佛是个没感情的机器人，
眼里只有名与利，
或许他说得对，
难道现在的一切，
不正是我以前要的吗？

我的多心很多心

最近你对我有些冷淡了，
是我多心了吗？
还是你真的需要些时间，
来看看我的真心。

你总是让我猜也猜不透，
而我在你面前总是那么的脆弱，
真怕你对我说你不再爱我了，
真怕我期待的那一天不来了，
我不想再想，
也不敢去想，
只能默默的等着。

蛮害怕即将来临的旅行，
因为你我在他们面前会有些距离，
而他们也不会帮我制造什么机会，
这些我都很明白，
我会默默的偷看着你，
想象着你是对着我说话，
我想那时的我应该很静的吧，
但那时我是不会让人知道的。

我知道我是爱你太深了，
才会让你牵动我的心，
才会让你看见我的脆弱，
难道你真的不知道，
只有你才看到如此赤裸裸的我。。。

爱情与面包

原来爱情与面包的世界是对立的，
当面包的世界是五彩缤纷时，
爱情的世界却只有灰色和蓝色，
而爱情逝去后，
面包也变得苦涩无味了。。。